On the Edge of our seats!

As we sit, on the Edge of our seats with Brasil right around the corner we get more anxious and frustrated and irritated at this process. But then we think, this is just a time when we're in the wilderness being tested my God. Our hearts are heavy and everyday we're not in Brasil it feels like shots go right through my heart. BANG BANG BANG... thats the sound of the enemy's attacks. BANG BANG BANG, thats the sound of my heart being torn apart. Then we think the devil has nothing on us, we are Soldiers of Christ, fighting this war, one war for the cause of letting each and every nation know about Jesus Christ. The other is us trying to get these visas, but they are both apart of one battle, one war. It's a spritual war that the devil can not and will not win.

Everyday I wake up hoping that not being in Brasil was a dream. Hoping to wake up on a floor of rocks or something, but when I wake up I am greatly disapoited. I am tucked in COMFORTABLY in my bed in the United States and my host homes house. I left comfortable at the door when I decided to go to Brasil, so why should I be comfortably tucked into my bed when there are thousands of street kids in Brasil who dont even have a roof over their heads? Answer me that... You can't can you? How many times do you go about your life in a COMFORTABLE way?

Have you ever jugded the parents who live in shelters with there children? Or perhaps just jugde parents when they walk by? Do you jugde by appearence or whats on the inside? Do you criticized and down grade people? Am I hitting a sore spot? Trust me, before I was a Christian I criticized people more then I should have. I jugded them without getting to know them as well.

But heres what I'm saying, in Brasil, you cant jugde people like that. You can just love on the children that have no parents, who are street children. They need love and that what I, we intenend to show them. Alot of the street kids in Brasil are there because their parents cant take care of them. They have to many mouths to feed and they beleive they could live better on the streets. Or there parents arent around anymore, perhaps they died or just left. So you dont know, so we cant judge.

As the first year in masters with Brasil it's hard to say what I'll be doing this time next year. Will I be back in Brasil, will I be waiting on my visa again? Or will I be takeing another rout? God will reveal that to me, when I'm good and ready. Jeremiah 29:11 states he knows the plans He has for me. All I know is that the kids in Brasil, and even other nations who are street kids and dont have parents have my heart. I want to show them love. I really do.

If I had to die for the name of Jesus Christ, I would. I would make that decision to follow Him and die rather than deny Him and live. This is not my life. It's His. This is not my will, it's His. I did not make myself, He made me. Therefore if someone put a gun to my head and told me if I denied Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior I could live I would simply say, "Jesus Christ is my Father, My Creator, My Healer, My daddy and I am His Pricess. He created me, I know that, He created you, I know that. Therefore if you kill me you are killing yourself" Granted, I probably wont be able to get all those words out. haha..But I would try. =]]]]]

Hope that helped someone! I am His, He is mine. I will scream and rejoice in His name forever! And ever!!